Beginning Thoughts

    Recently there was a rather large turn of events in my and G’s relationship. We discovered somethings about one another that pushed us forward toward more of the kind of relationship we both desire. Unfortunately most of the conversations that lead us to our discovery were on Facebook and there is no history to look back at. So I will do my best to try and retrace the path that led us here.

    The beginning of this all really started with our sexual interests and our curiosity. We had experimented a tiny bit with erotic spanking. I’d always had a guarded interest in some S&D things; light bondage, blindfolds, etc… spanking is very new to me and to be honest I’m both very curious and a little guarded about it. Most of the guardedness comes from a fear of hurting her. I worry that my numbness in my hands will limit my ability to judge how hard I am hitting her. She assures me she will let me know if it is too much and i believe her but I am still a little gun shy for now.

    Well our interest in erotic spanking and exploring other things not entirely straight lined and main stream often leads us to this sort of cat and mouse game of edging our way along the edge of the non conventional. I knew that I could feel her interest in things and i suspect she felt mine too. Well this past week we somehow find our way across that boundary that seemed to keep us just on the edge of really opening up and talking about things. As i said before I don’t know what exactly got us here but the discussions moved from being limited to the bedroom and into our relationship as a whole. After chatting for a little while one day she asked me if I had ever heard of Domestic Discipline. She gave me a few websites to look at and before long I realized that some of my deepest desires and wants ran very close to these concepts and practices.

    Now let me start by telling you a few things about my love. Georgia is no timid compliant drone of a woman that in anyway could be construed as a woman that would let any man push her around. She is highly intelligent, extremely strong, and very capable. I’d never in a million years believed I’d find a submissive side to her. Now don’t take that commit to mean that I believe that submissive women are not all of the things I just mentioned when describing her. I simply would have never put her in that role before. So to find ourselves where we are has been quite a surprise to both of us I think.

    I've suspected for a while now that she was more submissive in the bedroom and wanted a partner that would take control and be more aggressive but I never suspected that would also lead to other aspect of our lives. Our conversations this past week has really been a second major turning point in our relationship. We both feel a certain confidence and feel a sense of direction that I think we’ve been looking for far longer than we realized.

    Starting next weekend we will begin practicing a DD type of relationship. In some ways we have already begun to transition to it. I want to take the time to document my current thoughts and observations so we can record our journey and look back at the milestones we cross.

Points to Note

• I have begun to assume the authoritative role in our relationship.
• We have decided to sit down and discuss the initial set of rules.
• We will try to make decisions together.
• In the event we can’t both agree on particulars I have the final say so.
• We will be using spanking as our primary means of discipline.
• The power giving to me is given with complete trust that I will make decisions that will benefit everyone involved.
• We've agreed to try DD for a minimum of 8 months.

My Feelings –

“With great power comes great responsibility.” – Uncle Ben (Spiderman)

    I know i just quoted a fictional character from superhero comic/movie however the quote is very powerful and accurate. I realize that in assuming the role i am assuming I am agreeing to take on a a great amount of responsibility. It is a bit overwhelming when you think of how much responsibility is involved and yes is scares me a little but it also gives me an overwhelming sense of purpose and direction. It shows me just how much G loves and trusts me. That in and of itself outweighs the fears. I want to make something very clear about my feelings on this chosen lifestyle. It is just that a “chosen” lifestyle. I want this not because G wants it and feels it will help her but because I also feel it will help me. At first I was scared that I may not be able to handle the discipline side of things. Making my love cry will not be an easy thing. I believe it will benefit her and myself in the long run and I know that my love for her would never allow me to push her any further than she is capable of handling. I know we will have a learning period and we will have to figure out a way to adapt things to our temporarily distant relationship. I have complete confidence that we will be able to do so.

To sum up my feelings:

I am excited at the possibilities the lay ahead for us.
I am nervous about the mechanics of it all.

I am honored that G believes and trusts me.
I am bless to have so much love in my life.

For now I’m going to leave things here and will return with an update soon.

“Discipline strengthens the mind so that it becomes impervious to the corroding influence of fear. ” ~ Bernard Law Montgomery